One eye Jack

I don't really talk about work unless I feel it is a worth entry. However, I felt that I've been lacking or lost touch on how "work commitment" has taken the whole lot of me ever since 2009. It's not that I'm proud of what I've been doing for the past couple of years, it's just that I had to be judged with my appearance with the job scope I'm holding. I love being the crazy me and the nonsencical I do with my friends, my family. Let's put it this way, it's my life and I prefer my work to be as private as possible. 

However, the emotions at work was slightly overwhelmed. Slightly. I do wanna make a few entry few months ago, but I always not free and can't pen it into thoughts or make it into an entry.

There were two pre-term deliveries during  my shift. I'm going to share on one particular delivery, whom I attended to as I was the initial person who brought her it. My client came in at 2330H, presenting with lower abdominal pain without any contractions with a pain score of 7-8. No, the patient was not crying but complain of persistent backache as well as the abdominal pain since last Thursday. I attended to her before and the team doctors discharge her with mild painkillers which is Paracetamol and Bengay Cream, however the pain persists. She does not show any sign of labour. Usually, the presentation of pain varies and the team did diagnose her with ligament strain and all I did was assure the client that could be it. The toco did not pick up any contractions, to take into consideration she is only at 28weeks and 3 days. So, the team doctors did vaginal examination and checked that she is 10centimeters dilated; YES- definitinely she is in labour,. The team of night nurses quickly get on our feet and transferred and admitted her into labour ward to deliver her. 

Fast forward to the labour process, it took her quite awhile to progress. The whole of doctors from Obstetrics as well as Paedreaticians and team of nurses Midwives and Neonates are all gloved up to welcome the newborn. I'm impressed by how efficient we are as a team to nurse the client and the newborn. The client began active pushing from 0100H till 0145H, and the head of the baby does not descend much, by then the client hs used up most of her effort during pushing. Teaching someone during labour is tough as she may choose not to listen to you; therefore the nurse have to be firm to get things going. Towards the last 15mins (One hour of active pushing), I comforted the patient that she doing this for herself as well for the newborn and she have to give all her might for these last few pushes, and she did it. She really did it. Alhamdullilah. At this point, the room was silent. It was full of emotions unfelt, unseen, unannounce though it was dead silent. I can't describe much but it was there. From the client, the husband, the doctors, nurses, student doctor. The emotions in the room  was overwhelmed. The tense in the room suddenly disappear and came sense of relief. This moment, usually supposed to be a happiest moment but no. The client had already prepared for the worst. The worst outcome of the newborn. Everyone did. I can't go beyond explaining this and why. But it did. 

28th July

Apgar 2,4

1310kg

0200H

Male 👶🏻

Whatever the outcome, we all know he is a fighter. I saw you, with that one left eye open to see the world. I shall call you, " One eye Jack". You tiny human. 😘